January 17, 2012

What is A Course in Miracles?

Someone asked me to write an introduction to the Course. Well, here it is:

Introduction to A Course in Miracles

What is A Course in Miracles? It has been called a spiritual psychology, a spiritual mind training and a self-study course. It has no doctrine and no theology because it is designed to bring about a personal experience of conscious contact with God. It awakens the individual to a new thought system, one of enlightenment and freedom. It uses Christian vernacular yet has been compared with esoteric teachings. The author is Jesus of Nazareth. His voice is unmistakably very comforting to the reader.

When the Course speaks to you it has an immediate personal effect as you do the lessons. It opens up a new alternative that changes your thinking fundamentally. It goes beyond concepts, theology, religion and beliefs. It’s purpose is to free you from the perception of separation from God to Oneness with God. This is its only purpose. There isn’t any real problem, but you think there is, therefore, you need a solution.

The Course is a path of true healing and awakening that affects you on your deepest level. It can be helpful to anyone willing to take the time to try it and experience something different. It requires faith in something greater than your perception of yourself. It’s sole purpose is to free you from your self-imposed exile from Heaven and give you, through acts of forgiveness, your true inheritance.

I came to the Course after a period of deep depression, desperate, confused and not understanding why my anxiety would not go away with psychotherapy or hypnosis. No one seemed to know how the mind actually works or where fear comes from. That was deeply upsetting.

The Course answered these fundamental psychological questions like who am I and why am I here? Most importantly, the mind training shows me that fear isn’t real and can be released with the recognition that I made it up. It is a simple matter of constant surrender to God that brings true peace. It is a deeply personal experience that is universal. A universal theology is impossible, but a universal experience is not only possible but necessary.

Jesus began speaking directly to me when I found it. I was so frightened by the certainty of his voice. But because he immediately began to give me guidance, I began to trust this voice inside me. I had no choice. It was that or nothing, sickness or death. I needed the answer. This voice began to encourage me to start teaching the Course publicly. I didn’t want to do this, I was terrified of speaking in public, but I could not deny him.

To teach the Course, you simply offer what it says and let it do the healing. Your personal story of awakening is always helpful. The Course is simple and easily undertaken by anyone who wants true peace and happiness. The systematic mind training of the Workbook is thorough and direct. It is designed to undo fear and ignite a personal spiritual awakening. It states that it is a celestial speedup. This means it will save you time.

I know from experience that the Course increases frequency into illumination. There are greater states of evolution beyond this Earth plane. In the first year of reading the Course, I experienced a recognition of the unity of teachings of enlightenment from all spiritual paths. Indeed, truth is true and nothing else is true.

People come to the Course from all religions and no religion. It doesn’t matter what your past beliefs or convictions are, because it is always giving you more than your past experience. You will most likely love it, hate it, deny it and run from it. It will lead you into your own denial and fear and then relieve you of it. Transformation is a relinquishment of your ideas of God, time, space, bodies, good, evil, sickness, pain, birth and death.

You don’t have to believe what the Course says, but it is helpful to be willing to let your beliefs be challenged and your thought system changed. It will confront you on a very fundamental level because it is an undoing of the self-constructed human condition of limited consciousness which constitutes you as a closed thought system.

Enlightenment is an experience, not a doctrine. Light comes into your mind when you open up to a new experience of yourself. You surrender and let go of conflict of your self-constructed egoic identity so that you can let go and find true peace. Peace is its goal. It is beyond your idea of peace. There is nothing required of you that you have this experience. In truth, you can do nothing. The mind training does everything for you. Just be open, have faith and be willing to have a new experience.

This is an uncompromising offering of a present state of total happiness that is beyond your concepts of good and evil, life and death. It is found within you because that is where you must go to release fear and to accept that love is what you are.

The introduction states that “free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum. It means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given time. Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.”

Monica Dubay
Wisconsin Dells, 2012

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December 13, 2011

Going Within – Lessons 1-7

To find that still voice within you you need only quiet down and allow your mind to relax. Can you do that? The human condition is a total distraction from this action. You are conditioned to always act without thinking. You are in a constant state of reaction. Do you notice that? You use your mind constantly to deny the happiness that resides deep within yourself. You need a mind training. The Course states that an untrained mind can accomplish nothing.

You have to give yourself the time, the attention. Do you think peace will come some day without your attention on it? Do you ever stop and ask yourself…what do I really want? What is it I truly seek to find?

If you truly wanted peace, you would have it. It is that simple. You do have all help the moment you ask, but you have to mean it and put your time your focus on that inner peace to have it. It’s an experience, not an intellectual exercise.

Right here and now, take a moment and go within yourself. Ask for the answer.

The illumination of your mind comes to you when you slow the thoughts down and relax into a new state. The incessant need to do something is an addiction. You are attacking yourself with these thoughts. You have covered your NOW. So, stop, release and relax into a surrender. The illumination is within you. You cannot find it outside. Your outside is projected from within you. This is key.

You need a focus: Let’s use Course Lessons 1- 3. Nothing I see means anything. I have given it all the meaning it has. But I don’t understand anything I see.

Everything you see you have given meaning to, you have been conditioned to define everything around you and tell it what it is. But you are not “feeling” it. It’s just a definition, cold, and all isolated from everything else. That is a chair, a window, a wall, a pencil, a body, etc. Find the meaning you have given it.

Now say, I don’t understand anything I see. Now there is room for a new perception. Until then, you are locked into your own definition of everything. It isn’t real, because you have given it the meaning out of your need to be defined and to define your world. This is not love. It is actually a defense of your own bodily identity.

Now, we move onto the level of thought: You will notice you have thoughts, constant thoughts. You cannot stop thinking. It’s OK. Your mind never stops thinking. It is always active.

Lesson 4: These thoughts do not mean anything. Good thoughts, bad thoughts, crazy thoughts, happy thoughts. NONE of them means anything. They can be let go. The long range purpose of this Course is to see the meaningless outside and the meaningful within. You will notice that your seeing is a reflection of your thoughts. But what are these thoughts really about?

Lesson 5: I am never upset for the reason I think. So, you are upset, and yet you don’t really know why.

Lesson 6: I am upset because I see something that is NOT THERE. So if it is not there, you are putting it there, so you don’t have to be upset, do you? You have a choice. But you are already upset. It’s too late. You can’t purify your thoughts. Just notice them. It’s OK. Just notice that you have these thoughts and they are upsetting. Admission of how you feel is important.

Lesson 7: I see only the past. If you are only projecting the past onto everything, you have defined everything you see, and you are missing the NOW. You wake up with the fear, the dread, the guilt of the past on your mind every day. AND YET, it is NOT THERE.

You are playing this game with yourself.

It is very reasonable that you would want to stop this game and play a better game. A game of enlightenment. A game of letting go and finding peace.

If you really asked yourself whether you want a different experience, you would find the answer. It is all here. The lessons point you to the experience, but you have to do them to have the experience.

That is something worth thinking about.

Blessings.

Monica

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November 2, 2011

State of Grace

Are you tired of an endless spiritual search that only seems to lead you into more confusion? Do you wonder when you will reap the fruits of your search and actually find the peace that is promised in the traditions that lead to enlightenment?

What does it mean to actually hit a true “bottom”? Have you hit it? How do you know? When you get to the depth of yourself, when you see how miserable this little self is trying to make something of itself in this vast universe, then something can happen. A miracle: something in you on a very deep level shifts from a linear, fear based state of mind to a peaceful, vertical acceptance of life itself exactly as it is…you know you’ve hit it and have gone on.

Many people want the results without doing the work. Maybe they can have them. I don’t know… there is no order of difficulty in miracles. That is the first sentence of the entire Course and it means that it doesn’t have to take time.

A Course in Miracles states it is a celestial speedup. What used to take time now is happening in an instant. The consciousness has changed and you are coming out of the dark. It does get darker for a time, so that you can see the difference between darkness and light, and make a real choice. Before, you were just confused. When the light enters after a long period of struggle with an idea or a situation you cannot solve, the light then shows you that all your efforts were worth it. True freedom from fear is not only possible, but inevitable.

Why? Because the ego mind has no source. It is made up. You don’t have to worry about something that isn’t real. You simply have to recognize its unreality by choosing to be free. That’s it. The help you are given when you make this choice is unlimited. Your mind shifts and you enter a “state of grace” from that moment on. Your entire life changes and you become truly compassionate and have only a sincere desire to help. You don’t care about yourself as much as how you can be of service to help others to have this same experience. This is a “sea change”. It takes place in the depth of your being and it is very joyful because, finally, after all your life of misery, you are given a real reason for being here.

In the end of Chapter 7, The Gifts of the Kingdom, it states that following the Holy Spirit is the easiest thing in the world, and the only thing that is easy, because it is not of the world and therefore, natural. Grace is the natural state of every Son of God. That’s YOU. You are in this state of grace already, and your job is to stop denying it.

When you think you have something to do with your own awakening, you are deluding yourself. God is. God has already saved you. You simply choose to accept it and you are free. But you must give up every idea that limits you. This seems like it takes time, but I assure you that it isn’t difficult unless you make up an idea of difficulty. You are still doing this to yourself and you can stop. You can decide that there isn’t anything difficult about you being who you are. It doesn’t make sense. You are YOU. There is a feeling of release, a sudden shift of awareness and you find yourself in a very different state of mind. YOU ARE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN SEEKING!

“By demonstrating to yourself there is no order of difficulty in miracles, you will convince yourself that, in your natural state, there is no difficulty at all because it is a state of GRACE.” When you are not in this state, everything you do becomes a strain. “A Son of God is happy only when he knows he is with God.”

It is the total surrender of your idea of yourself as separate that must and did indeed occur. When you are free, you are free! There is no going back. It isn’t possible. Fear may arise in your awareness, but you simply laugh and let it go. Fear isn’t real. Love is.

“When a mind has only light, it knows only light. Its own radiance shines all around it, and extends out into the darkness of other minds transforming them into majesty.” Majesty? Wow. Do you see that you are this radiance and that you only have to recognize and appreciate and know it. But the next sentence is key: “Recognizing the Majesty of God as your brother is to accept your own inheritance.”

Your brother is the majesty of God. That is why judgment is always false. Appreciation is the only appropriate response to a Son of God. That’s your brother and he is you. So, why would you want to judge him? STOP DOING IT.

Love is always the answer, forgiveness is the key. You cannot escape your fear without forgiveness of yourself for having this idea of separation. It was only a mistake and isn’t true anyway. So, just accept it. It is long over and its time you accepted that fact.

Blessings and love you today!
Monica

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August 12, 2011

Release of Fear

It only takes about 15 minutes to get quiet and find an inner silence. This is a practice. It doesn’t have to take a long time. But just to set the tone for the day, to read a lesson or quiet the mind means you are dedicating your life to peace. Perfect peace is within you and all around you, but you can miss it. It means setting the goal for the day. If you state “I want to be peaceful, happy, joyful and have wonderful adventures today,” you will be amazed at what can happen.

Love is all around you and you are IT. Your only obstacle to this realization is fear. So notice any fear thoughts? Identify them, recognize their nothingness and move on. I had a student ask yesterday, “so if the fear is gone, I will still sometimes feel it?” I couldn’t answer right away. Then it became clear. If it is gone, it will no longer have the charge, the energy of entrapment. You may notice that you used to have the fear in certain situations, but when it is gone, it is gone. The miracle occurs when you decide you WANT it gone. But you don’t know how it is gone. You didn’t do it. It is a miracle of grace that releases it. If you go looking for it, you may make it up again. But why would you want to do that?

Don’t let your fear thoughts trick you into thinking when a fear thought has been released, it is still there. That’s just crazy. It is really gone because you let it go and the miracle occurred. You can deny this, but why would you want to? Be free! Don’t be bound by your own incessant need to examine yourself all the time. Be free of your own possessiveness. You possess everything as a human being. Let go!

There is nothing that this world offers that you truly want. It is temporal, it will eventually die. Fear is not real. Death cannot hurt you. There is only love and this is what you are. It is an acceptance of what is true. You can’t be truly happy and be fearful. Fear of death is fear of nothing. It isn’t real. You cannot die. You cannot obliterate your consciousness. Love is all around you! It is YOU.

Love knows not of fear. It is quiet, and judges not. Forgiveness occurs when you no longer value your separateness, your grievance with yourself. When you have mercy on yourself, you will have mercy on others. This is how you become free. Surrender, release, and relinquishment. Resign as your own teacher. Your self-constructed identity is not real nor has any meaning whatsoever. It has only brought you pain from the moment you conceived of it.

So it is actually effortless to release what is not true anyway. I love it. I love that love is so reasonable.

Blessings!
Monica

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April 30, 2011

How to Become Enlightened…continued

So, if you have done the work from the previous post, you can now, today, stop for a moment and just let go. All these ideas you had in your mind were just that. Ideas. They only had consequence in your mind. Cause and effect are never separate. One thought brings immediate results. This is what quantum physics signifies and all you need to know. Since cause and effect are never separate, you are always getting the result of your thoughts instantly.

So, release your idea of littleness, lack and loss. You will find that they were not true ideas and can literally be replaced by the love of God right here and now. Ego thoughts are never true, because there is no ego. It is just a made up idea of you in form, in separation, in a false association with guilt as its basis. But, you are not guilty. You had a tiny mad idea that you could be separate, but you could not make it true. God did not allow you to be apart from Him. You are an idea in His Mind. That is why all the great masters teach that you are not true, you are playing a game with your own mind.

The game of loss, littleness and death or the game of redemption. Both of which are simply games. The Mind of God knows not of your games. He only knows you as a holy perfect Son of God.

You can right now release your thoughts about what is happening to you. Just tell this little mind to stop. You do have power over your mind. You are not the victim of it. It will stop when you tell it to. You have ALL POWER. Use your mind to ignite your passion of love for your Creator and your brother.

If you need help, try this thought: My mind holds only what I think with God.

There is no conceptual teaching that will take you out of your denial. Only a true miracle of light or peace will work and this happens when you decide you want it above all else. When you surrender, something else occurs. You have no need to do anything right now. There is nothing you need do to be yourself!

All your seeking, all your suffering was to lead you to this moment. Now. Just let go.

It all worked perfectly. It brought you to NOW.

Yes, it might make you afraid. That is only because you think God will punish you, but I promise you, the burning love of God is what you have kept hiding from. It is not death which frightens you, but the absolute passionate LOVE of God that created you. His love is the fire which attracts you. If you get too close, it will burn you up! Yes and it will be glorious! Your false identity will be annihilated. And you will never play that game of fear again.

None of this dream ever really happened. It is over. Everything you see is over. Let it go and you will be free. This doesn’t take time. It only takes a moment.

All your seeking, all your practicing only brought you to this moment. It all worked perfectly.

Love is all around you and you ARE IT. I promise you this is all you have ever wanted.

You are healed. It was all just a mistake. Forgive a mistake. Forgive the dream of suffering and pain. Let it simply go into the nothingness from which it came.

Be free today. Be still and know that God is love. You are that Love and cannot continue denying it. It isn’t possible. Love is real. All else is false and will never satisfy you. Stay vigilant for the truth, and love your brother as yourself. You and he are one idea. Love is singular. It is subjective. And it is real.

Blessings
Monica

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March 7, 2011

How to Become Enlightened in 10 Steps

Many masters have given instructions on how to achieve enlightenment using methods, chanting, meditation, prayer, or reading a daily lesson. What will work for you? First you have to ask yourself: Do I really want to become enlightened? Or am I just on a spiritual search and haven’t found what I’m looking for. Are you willing to waste more time or have you become fed up with the idea that it may take ” many lifetimes” to achieve your goal?

If you are fed up with the idea that it takes time to become enlightened, then you have come to the right place. This idea is a trap. It means that you are not enlightened now and will not be unless you do these arduous tasks that seem too time consuming to really work. But you have to begin somewhere, so in this post, I explore 10 Steps to Enlightenment that make you look at yourself in a new way. It is a direct confrontation with the victim consciousness that most human beings ascribe to.

Who am I? Well, for the past 22 years, I dedicated my life to my awakening using A Course in Miracles as my method. The method or the practice was important, the master I was with for 12 years was vital to my progress, and now everything I learned I want to share with you.

Why? I have no idea why I am here otherwise. I only want to extend what I now know which may hopefully save you some time.

So, here goes:

1. Stop trying to become enlightened. Put down the practice, go inside you and ask yourself: What do I hope to experience by becoming enlightened?
Ask yourself, what do I not have right now that I want to have? Success, peace? Freedom from worry, fear, death? Be specific.

2. Get really quiet and ask yourself this: What am I willing to do to achieve this goal? Are you serious about this, or do you want someone else to enlighten you so you can go make money and be free from your egoic self-identity at the same time? This is a real trap!

3. Are you happy today? What are you feeling right now? Peace, boredom, fear? Write it down. What do you think you need in order to be happy? Write it down.

4. Do you think that enlightenment is achieved through suffering of some kind? Be serious and write down whatever comes to mind.

5. Do you think that your body can give you enlightenment? For example, through postures, sitting for long periods, breathing, etc. Be honest.

6. What is your idea about God? Write whatever comes to mind. This is a very important point. Ideas about God are always limiting.

7. Do you pray and why? Do you know who you are praying to? Are you sure there is someone there? Do you hear a voice speaking to you? Do you feel a presence? What is it like? Describe it.

8. Are you willing to change your beliefs about God? What if God’s Will for you is perfect happiness…would you believe that?

9. Are you willing to take responsibility for every thought you are thinking by accepting the fact that you are the thinker? Most people just accept that their thoughts are true because they are thinking them. What if none of them were true? How would that make you feel? Would you want to know what is true?

10. If God created you perfect and whole, is this what you experience now? In other words, are you totally aware that you are a complete idea in the Mind of God? Do you want to know yourself as this? If not, go and try to achieve something here. Good luck and enjoy all of it totally. You will either find it or not. But it should be an adventure either way.

If so, read on.

More to come.

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January 6, 2011

Freedom From Fear – The Power of Now

My daily practice consists of the mind training of A Course in Miracles. This is an on-going practice of relinquishment of self-identity through the workbook lessons brilliantly organized by the author.

In Eckart Tolle’s book, The Power of Now, he describes the mind that is ego. He also makes you stop and look at your own thought processes which keep you bound to ego mind. The most helpful thing I found with this book was that you had to not just read it, but become aware of the thoughts of ego mind and realize that this is your entire problem. The mind in separation, the pain body, all this is helpful to look at and think about. Several times he refers to A Course in Miracles, but doesn’t expound on it. It is a wonderful book and confronts you with the real problem of human existence at this time, This requires something more than a theory or a way to look at things in a different way. You need something that will completely change the way you think entirely. It is time we really take a look at the Course in Miracles and see that the blueprint for the awakeninng human consciousness is now here and is working perfectly.

Why do you need the workbook of A Course in Miracles?
Without a mind training, the ego mind continues to observe itself and project its own misidentity onto the “external” world. An idea never leaves its source, so the source, the ego mind, which is you, needs to be annihilated. This means you have to be completely undone. You have to awaken from this dream of separation. It isn’t a doing, it’s really an undoing. Observation is not the answer, more theories about enlightenment are not really helpful. Release is. Why? Because enlightenment is not a change at all. Heaven is not a place or a condition. It is all conditional. It is your whole mind which is part of a divine, loving Creator Who knows not of your silly dream. In truth, YOU are IT, and IT is not lost. It is what you are! But do you experience it? Or are you still caught in the dream trying to find your way out?

The fact is, you need an alternative to the dream that you made up. And it is right here.

How does it work? The Course lessons are designed to facilitate the release or your self-identity: through surrender, relinquishment, and letting go. First you must stop judging, stop blaming and take total responsibility for your own thoughts. I have been in the practice of these daily lessons for many years. Each day the course suggests you look within, find the thoughts that keep you bound to fear, and practice a new idea. What happens is that the Mind that you share with God becomes more real to you than the ego mind. Over time, you start to laugh at how ridiculous it is to be afraid when love and light are all around you, and in fact, what you are! It is a miraculous occurrence, and therefore, is a true Mind training that frees you from fear. It amazes me that it is still not widely known as a true path to enlightenment.

If you really take the time to look within and find those thoughts that keep you suffering and in pain, you then have an opportunity to become aware of the fear underlying this pain. But becoming aware of it wasn’t my problem, I knew I was afraid, and I wanted it to go away!

Why so much fear? Why depression? This is what brought me to the Course, I couldn’t find the answer to the question: Why am I so afraid? Psychologists couldn’t help me, hypnosis couldn’t help me. I found, to my astonishment, no one knew how the mind works. Even the academics know that we still know very little about the mind. This was stated recently in a lovely documentary called Spiritual Revolution. Which also did not include people doing the mind training of A Course in Miracles, strangely enough.

When I opened the Text of A Course in Miracles way back in 1989, the explanation, although written in religious terminology, was very clear and very simple: You think you are separate from your Creator and this has made you very fearful. You made up this idea, or illusion of a separate state and you think it is real. Your entire world revolves around this one central idea and luckily for you, you are mistaken. You are asleep in a dream. There is a way out, but you must awaken to the truth by letting go of all you made up. One idea after another. Luckily, there is a proven method involved which requires the simple discipline of doing one lesson per day. Then you apply this lesson to everything that happens during that day.

The action of relinquishment is a practice and yet, it happens in spite of you. In my experience, the mind is very devious. You may decide you want to become enlightened, and even dedicate yourself to a practice which brings you into quiet every day. However, without a mind training which releases the thoughts of judgment, fear and attack, you are still observing a mind that is afraid. What is the point? Without the miracle, there is no hope. So, luckily, the Course is here and is aimed at saving you time. You don’t have to sit for long periods contemplating ideas, watching thoughts without a solution. This is mind wandering. And you are much too tolerant of mind wandering!

Lesson 7, which is key, states “I see only the past”. This is amazing when you really get it experientially. Every thought you think is about the past. And the only thing keeping you from experiencing this present moment is this preoccupation with your past. AND IT IS OVER. Isn’t that weird?

That is why you are in pain. Your painful thoughts about the past is what makes up your self-identity. It isn’t even there! It is already gone. But you maintain it with your insistence that it is still happening. Who would you be without it? Ask yourself this question. Every day. Every moment.

You see, for me, it has to be practical. I want to feel it, know it on a gut level. I need to feel and know that fear is not real. It isn’t there. Lesson 6 is “I am upset because I see something that is NOT THERE.” Practice that all day long and see what happens.

This brings me instantly into a state of mind where only now exists. The light dawns upon me. There is so much support around me that gives me this glimpse into reality. Which is heaven, which is love, and it is what I am. God didn’t abandon me! I am HOME right here and NOW.

More later…thank God!

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December 27, 2009

Simply Do This: Stay Uncertain

In times of complete uncertainty, this is what helps me the most:

Simply do this: Be still, and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty your mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, nor one belief you ever learned before from anything. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God.

Can you do it? Can you lay aside all false ideas about yourself and the world? Can you relinquish all ideas of lack or of littleness? Can you let go of your fear of the future? Or memories of pain of the past?

Can you have faith in One Who Knows you and knows you perfectly?

This is the great challenge of our species. Will you go on denying that there is a God who loves you totally? Will you put your faith in the temporal? Or in the eternal?

Time is a sleight of hand. It isn’t even real. You are making up time to prolong your inevitable demise. You cannot die. You are not a body. All fear stems from this one idea: that you can annihilate yourself. And it’s simply not true.

You are an eternal loving being created by an all loving God. He would never allow you to suffer pain, sickness or death. Love knows not of fear or death. He does not know of what you have made of yourself. You are perfect and whole as God created you. You could not alter yourself.

You are asleep in a dream, that is all. It is time to awaken and be free.

I have been challenged to my core. I have experienced deep losses. So have you. There is no difference, except perhaps I woke up and am aware that I am dreaming. And in this dream, the only thing I need do is let go. Forgive and be forgiven. Heal and be healed. I am in a continual healing experience that makes my little life seem insignificant. My mind is total, it is whole. It is not separate from you. The losses were only experiences of release of a self-constructed identity that could never be real anyway.

I must let go absolutely. Until then, I am nothing. I am afraid, selfish, self-seeking and dishonest. The program of healing the mind that is A Course in Miracles is also the 12 Step Program. This program has helped me immeasurably with my awakening. It brought me to my KNEES when I couldn’t find my way out of the pain. Taking inventory showed me the secret fears that I kept hidden from myself.

I can do nothing of myself. But I can let go and let God. This is so important and has gotten me through the deepest, darkest moments of my journey. I know there is a God because I have put my total trust in Him to heal me of my dream of separation from Him.

Do I have doubts? Am I uncertain about everything?

You bet. Do I know what to do when I have them? Yes. Get on my knees and ask to be shown. I don’t have to know what to do about tomorrow. I just have to know about right now. This is critical. Because all my fear has to do with the future.

I don’t know how I will pay my bills, I don’t know if I should sell my house. I don’t know if I should go back to school, find a new job, get remarried…you fill in the blank.

The kicker is this:

How can I know what to do when I don’t know who I am?

You see? The uncertainty is inherent in the fact that you don’t know who you are. So your job is to relinquish your ideas. Let go of the need to be in control. This seems like an easy directive, but try it. Do it every day.

All I really know is that if I ask for help and it will be given in the moment I most need it. I have to get really quiet, stop my questioning, let myself not know everything for a moment. In the now, I am totally uncertain, and in the uncertainty, I am free to let God direct me.

This is what total freedom is, it is the uncertainty principle. The Master Teacher always tell us to “stay uncertain”. Why? Because cause and effect are not apart. You are doing this to yourself. You cannot solve your problem, because the problem is YOU.

Quantum physics tells us one important thing, nothing is as you see it. There is only light, the physical matter you are viewing is coming from the visual cortex in your brain, and you are a projector of imagery! You are affecting everything around you. That is why it is so important that you take care of your thoughts. Every thought has an effect.

This is a bit scary at first, but when you experience the fact that everything you think is what makes up your experience of yourself, it is important to become totally self responsible. You want to be healed, because in your healing is all healing. You affect everyone and everything! It is a singular experience.

Because there is only ONE MIND…yours!

This is how it works. I wake up each morning and open the book and do the lesson. I am like a little kid who knows that my parent is with me and is taking perfect care of me, even when I am afraid. I let this parent know I am in His mind today. Everything is in His care.

This is a miraculous occurrence. I feel grounded. Loved, protected and guided.

It is a miraculous release! It has only to do with loving myself, my enemy. Serving my brother. Taking care of myself in the moment. Being good to myself and letting go of my agenda.

I don’t try to “create my day”. That is an attack on God. I let my day be led by Him, an all loving God who knows my best interests. That way, I know I am not separate and I can be happy. Totally out of control! Free to be passionate, to be blown away by love and the freedom of mind that comes with loss of control.

All control is an attack upon myself. I can stop attacking myself, surely, if I simply choose to let God be God. Then and only then can I be of service to those who still suffer. Working my 12th Step has shown me that I am not the center of the universe. That you are. You, a representative of God, are my savior and helper. I can rely on God, I can rely on your help and I can know that you are not separate from me. I know you are me.

If I harbor hateful thoughts about anyone, anyone at all, I cannot stand it. Love is the answer and forgiveness is the key. But how to forgive when it seems like someone has wronged you? Here it is: It’s you. You have that thought, you have made it up. You are projecting that onto the other guy. He is an image in your own mind.

He is You!

You are responsible for the cleanup. So, be about it. Let go your thoughts about the other guy. Has God changed His Mind about him or about you? Get on your KNEES. I love the direction, don’t go to sleep on a grievance. Take an inventory every night. Make that call!

Then ask yourself this. Who walks with me? Who is my guide, my protector, my friend?

Stay in communication with this Mind. You are being led on this journey out of time, out of space…to a place of perfect peace. And it is not in the future. It is right NOW. It is not in a distant galaxy, it is right here on Earth.

In all the years of this journey with no distance, I have continually found that my own ideas are the problem. It is where I hold onto the idea of trying to be safe here, in a world of death. People appear to be getting sick and dying. I see it around me and I am dismayed.

My freedom from this nightmare comes from knowing WHO I AM. And letting that self be totally free to be itself, in spite of what anyone else says, thinks or does.

When it’s really dark, and I can’t find my way, I get on my knees and ask to be shown. It is a miracle of grace that comes from Love itself.

In spite of your misgivings, your doubts, your fears, you are healed. Why? Because you are as God created you. You are not the alter-ego that denies it. Just stop. Because ultimately, God wins. God is love and He needs you. Yes, you.

Love is letting go of fear. Anger, doubt, faithlessness, is all part of fear. It is not different. That is why I love the 12 Steps. It forces me to look at my fear. To reveal to myself the darkest thoughts I hide from myself. Then in the relinquishment these fears, I am miraculously healed. If I don’t look at these fears, these ideas of pain, I am still protecting them, so I still want them.

I don’t like being in pain. I don’t like feeling that I am all alone here. I am sick and tired of it. If I look straight at these fears, they are released and I am undone. Doors open up. I find myself in a new place. There is hope, a guiding light within me that is totally present. It may feel a bit strange or unfamiliar, but it is totally happy and joyful. Peace is joy. I am happy for no reason at all. Happiness is natural.

It is fear that is unnatural to your state of mind. Your only job is to let this fear be undone.

Be free to be yourself. Open up. Let go of all of your ideas. All your fears of future or past experiences. What if you are completely wrong about all of it? What if you have no control over anything anyway? Ha! Just let go because it isn’t true that you have anything to say about your life. It belongs to God. It belongs to Love Itself, for that is what you are.

Just open up to let God in. He is real. He is the Answer… in all ways.

I love you and hope this helps.

Blessings!
Monica

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December 13, 2009

Who is the seeker?

There really isn’t any explanation available to describe the process of awakening. It isn’t a process.

Ultimately, you are a seeker and you have been seeking for a very long time to find the answer to “the riddle of yourself”. But you must have set up the seeking, the seeker and the one being sought. You, in all your power, in all your glory assumed the position of not knowing who you are. What a fantastic game! Isn’t that incredible? And you judge, criticize and kill anyone who finds the way out and tries to offer help.

“Ye are gods…” I was watching a video of the Master Teacher and this quote is from Psalms in the Bible. The only thing that has happened to you, is that you have put yourself to sleep. “Know ye not, Nicodemus, you must be born again?” he means, born in the spirit, not the flesh. It is a rebirth or reawakening to the truth of you. Upon awakening, you suddenly see that what is real and what is false. Fear is false, love is real. Until you experience the truth of this love or light reality that is all around you and come into the knowledge that you ARE IT, however, you have made fear your god. You worship death, you exist in a tiny bubble of separate thoughts with you at the center and you really think it’s actually happening.

I read on Facebook someone said that fear must be transcended. But how can you transcend fear if it isn’t real? Why would you want to? You made fear and then you ask to have it taken from you? Huh? Please release me from my own manufactured illusion? OK. You’re released.

The question I have is who is afraid? Who is the one trying to transcend fear?

Transcend a dream? It won’t work. Because the problem is the you, the self-identity that you made up that you call you. The human being on a planet called Earth in the middle of this vast intergalactic universe, confound to a body identity, to getting up and eating, going to work, having babies, growing old and getting sick and dying. That’s you.

When YOU decide, when You have had enough of this madness, your mind implodes into a black hole of devastation, and you beg for help because you see you are the CAUSE of all of it…and then…oh, but then, all this light around you suddenly expands and then it just dawns upon you! All at once, the Truth! The Knowledge of you as a whole, perfect, eternally creating Mind. Light, love, limitless, totally joyful and free. You then KNOW first hand from the core, that you ARE all this. It was always ONLY You you were seeking.

So, my only question is…what are you waiting for?

You ask, how does it work? It doesn’t. It isn’t a working out. It is a relinquishment, a letting go of the self-constructed you that you think you are. Well, how do I do that? YOU DON’T.

Your awakening simply could not not happen. It did happen and you have nothing to say about it.

There may be stages along the way, because your level of fear is so great and seems to keep the truth from you. Utimately, however, all methods are bunk. At the same time, you have to allow that your mind needs the discipline of a mind training if it is bound to a thought system based upon an idea of separation. Why? You are not communicating. You think you are separate. YOU NEED HELP.

So, great! You can use any method you like and I want you to. You will use them until the moment when you simply cease to deny the truth about you. You are only here to undo the blocks to this awakening. It is a total relinquishment of your current state of mind. You have nothing to say about how it will come about, but you, my dear, have determined the time that you take. That is voluntary as it states so beautifully in the Introduction to A Course in Miracles. This course teaches one thing, that you cannot alter your reality. You must and did indeed awaken from this dream of death and now be yourself. Totally free.

If that isn’t your experience right here and now, then I suggest you get a copy of the Course and begin….Lesson #1. Nothing I see means anything. Wow.

Can you do the lessons just as the Course directs you to do, and give it one full year. One year! To become free of fear forever!

We begin on Day One. January 1, 2010. You have one year. What an adventure!

Love and blessings! i am with you always!

Monica

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November 27, 2009

The Third Jesus

I was reading Deepak Chopra’s book, The Third Jesus the other day. I really liked the idea he started with, that Jesus is more than a historical figure and a theological icon, but that his real message is one of personal transformation leading to awakening, or enlightenment. The idea is obvious, but I wondered if Deepak knows that Jesus is the author of A Course in Miracles, and why he didn’t even mention that. There are a lot of quotations in the Course that deal with the message of the New Testament and how it misrepresents what Jesus actually taught. It seems that Deepak wanted to stick with the Bible, so that’s fine with me too.

However, the Course is the actual way out of the separate state of mind that besets humanity at this time. It includes a masterpiece of transformation, the 365 lessons of the Workbook which is a mind training that leads you out of your current fear-based thought system and brings you into a brand new experience of love and light beyond your imaginings. It provides the blue-print for the second coming, or the awakening of YOUR mind. This is your spiritual rebirth or your coming into wholeness, or At-One-Ment, or one-mindedness. This is a required course and it is imperative that those who are really using it not as a way to achieve a more comfortable life on this planet, but as it is intended, to awaken from the illusion that this is reality.

When you awaken, you become a different species, a homo-illuminate mind. This means that you have no limitations in your awareness. Everything changes, your life, your relationships, your fundamental awareness of yourself as a separate being is blotted out and you know You. You realize that you are not confined to body and that you are whole. You convert any thoughts of fear automatically whenever they arise. You use every thought to release the idea of separate thoughts or consciousnesses. There is only One Mind and that is YOUR MIND.

It is a natural process of evolution that you awaken into the Singularity of Whole Mind or God-consciousness, as Deepak likes to put it. The only thing he misses is that this has nothing to do with mass human behavior. The salvation of the world is you awakening, it has nothing to do with others. You know yourself as One, as Whole, not a being in a body in a world of bodies. You lose the ability to maintain conflictual thoughts because the very nature of your Mind is non-conflictual. The experience of that is your resurrection. Your frequency changes to the point of flash out and pop, you’re gone from the world of separation.

Why is that? Because this is not a real place. Jesus states this so beautifully in the Course when Helen, the scribe, asks him if the resurrection was physical. His answer is “my body disappeared because I had no more illusions about it.” And in the section in the Manual for Teachers called “What is the Resurrection?”, he states that “Very simply, the resurrection is the overcoming or the surmounting of death. It is a reawakening or rebirth, a change of mind about the meaning of the world…it is the relinquishment of all other purposes, all other interests, all other wishes and all other concerns. It is the single desire of the Son for the Father.”

“The resurrrection is the denial of death being the assertion of life. Thus is all the thinking of the world reversed entirely. Life is now recognized as salvation, and pain and misery of any kind perceived as hell. Love is no longer feared, but gladly welcomed. Idols have disappeared, and the remembrance of God shines unimpeded across the world.”

Isn’t it amazing that we go “toward love still hating it” because it is not love we are afraid of but truly what we have made of love. We think love will destroy us, but real love, the love of God is what you are. You cannot alter yourself because you didn’t create yourself. You already are saved, because you already are created perfect.

The problem I have with Deepak is that he still thinks that salvation is a long way off. That it will be accomplished en masse. He hasn’t obviously experienced the singularity that he is dreaming a dream and that it is up to him and him alone to undergo the experience of resurrection or awakening. All is whole. Everything is one and there is no possibility of conflict arising in the mind. Period. End of story.

There is no multiplicity in Heaven. It is impossible to describe, because the you that demands a description is the problem itself.

You are separate or you wouldn’t be here. You are afraid of love or you would be totally overjoyed to know that you are simply asleep and you can awaken right here and now. Jesus resurrected and when that happened, it happened for all. The only thing that doesn’t know it is you. So you have a problem and it is called your self-identity. What you made up to hide from God. But, thankfully, it isn’t real.

So, if you really want to know and experience the message of Jesus of Nazareth, and I mean experience it, because the only way to know anything is to experience it first hand. Theoretical teachings are, ultimately, meaningless. What matters is that you experience who you are, perfect and whole as God created you. You do not have the power to blot out reality and make up a new reality with you as the center of the universe. I’m sorry, it just isn’t possible. There is a loving God who did not let you actually do this. You have simply put yourself to sleep. That is all.

I truly hope this clears up all the confusion. And Jesus is real, and he did come to save you and he did save you! Isn’t it time that you know this, in your depths, in your heart of hearts? Your awakening is at hand. It is deeply personal to you. You cannot describe it or even share it sometimes. But, I promise you, it is beyond your wildest dream.

I love you and bless you with all my heart!

Monica

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