The spiritual path is fraught with pitfalls and challenges. I found myself unable to manage these trappings at certain points along the way. I heard the voice within showing me the way to go, but there were moments of deep uncertainty and confusion. The Kingdom is within you, but if you are in a state of conflict at times and need some help, it is imperative that you find someone to guide you who has been there and has found the way out of fear. Your path is unique to you and there are blind spots. It can save you some time and wasted energy, the clarity of a Master is undeniably helpful.
Years ago, I found one teacher of the Course who I stayed with for four years. She had been awakened by a Master and I didn’t really know anything about her history. I didn’t ask for credentials, all I know is I needed help and she showed up to guide me through some very difficult years of my early development. She could see through the darkness for me, shine a light where I was unable to on my own. I was given the help I needed when I needed it.
During that time, I made some important decisions: I was a young mother and I had a lot going on and my spiritual life was moving in a direction of awakening that felt often too much too fast. But, with her guidance, I felt assured that I was on track and that it was good that my life became more meditative and focused on my connection to God.
The holy relationship with this teacher became a focus for my spiritual development. Letting myself be led by Jesus and this teacher was essential to my development. There were many moments of fear and doubt and this was alleviated knowing I had that phone call each week to look forward to, to check in and allow her light to guide me. Energy healing, direction and palpable light filled me each time and I was very, very grateful for her help.
After a few years, I felt something new begin inside me, I felt a lot of new energies coming in that felt very exciting. I felt more of a support coming, and I felt the need for a change yet didn’t know what it was about really.
Then I watched a video of the Master Teacher who was living in Wisconsin. I had never heard of him before and yet I felt an openness to just watch the video. I didn’t recognize him physically, he didn’t look at all like I thought a teacher should…I am not sure what I had in mind.
After watching the video, the next thing I experienced was undeniable. I felt all this energy well up inside me, a new powerful energy and light. Then I had to lie down as I felt myself go out of the Earth plane for a while. It surprised me how amazing that felt and my whole being changed, it was emotional and freeing and very different. The light was an unmistakable new freedom from within me.
From that day on, I knew that he was my teacher and deep within me, there was a recognition that I knew him very well. It was like meeting a very dear close relative that you have been missing for a long time, and finally seeing them and knowing that you know them, but you don’t really know how or from when. My intuition told me to pay attention.
For the next few months I watched the videos and felt an amazing sense of inner freedom and light. Over the next 10 years, I would spend every morning at the feet of the Master. I made a decision to allow myself to be led, to be guided, coached and cajoled into the life of the spiritual disciple. It was tumultuous, confrontational, and I am so filled with gratitude that I found him. Even now I am filled with love as I think about his unceasing give, showing up every day for me, for all those who were his students. And the love for the message of A Course in Miracles deepened, broadened and changed me.
I needed the support of the group, of those dedicated to forgiveness, to awakening and to the Course. I cannot imagine where or what I would be without that experience of living in a dedicated atmosphere, of being led so closely in contact with a teacher and with others who were with me. There was no idolization allowed, as we were always told to look within ourselves, to find the solution where it is. I always knew I had to work out my own awakening from deep within myself.
Teachers are important, as they know and can see things you can’t within you that you need help with. Don’t resist it. Life is full of challenges and sometimes you can’t get yourself through them and if you have the chance to be with a Master, you will grow from it. Some people fear that if you have a teacher, you could lose yourself, yet all you can lose is the fear of the love of God. The Master points you to yourself, seek and ye shall find. Stay in the openness, keep knocking and the door will be opened unto you.
God’s Will for you is to be happy, free, certain of who you are, and when you are willing,He will take you home. If you will to be happy, free of doubt, free of fear and perfectly joyful and at peace, know that this is YOUR will. A teacher can point you to it, but cannot do it for you. Keep in mind, this path is not for the faint-hearted or the one who wants it to be easy and fun. It isn’t always blissful to awaken, it means getting to the bottom of your pain, your fear and your memories of loss and letting them be converted. From darkness to light.
Every Master in the Eastern tradition had a Master before him/her in the lineage. It is in this holy relationship that each student finds out what true love is, what awakening really means. In Christ consciousness, we use Jesus directly, and yet there may come a time when being with an awakened teacher will be helpful for you. To guide you along this path, the inner path to the Christ, many shadow figures will arise. Forgiveness is sometimes impossible when you are faced with deep pain.
My gratitude for my teacher is beyond words and beyond my own assessment of the help I constantly receive from Him. I use many teachers now in addition to Jesus and Master Teacher: Yogananda, Robert Adams, Ramana Maharshi, Amma, Mother Mary, are among the most often called upon. Awakened masters are always available and willing to help guide you. Stay in contact with them and they will never fail you. Read, meditate and ponder their messages of eternal life and love and peace.
You will know when your teacher appears, it will be obvious. Be open to be changed from deep within your being, don’t resist. Don’t resist good, don’t resist evil. Don’t resist!
Help is just around the corner. I hope this helps you today.